Today has been a long day for me; I finally passed my driving assessment test after a year's hard work. I am now currently in the second phase of the Ls and have to wait for another 6 months until I can take another test to get my Ps :)
I couldn't sleep properly last night because of my nerves or excitement (just like how a kid is excited for the school field trip the next day or something) and it made me worry that it'll affect my performance in the test. But, in the end, I was able to pull through. :)
As I said, it has been a very long and happy day.
At first, I was worried because my examiner was late. It was making me so anxious that I ended up doing that thing that I always do when I'm nervous; I'd usually press my thumb at my lips and start biting my lips but when I'm just standing around, I'd be bending my knees or just move them because I'm the type that cannot sit still at all. So to the people around me, it'd seem like I was busting to pee or something.
Then next thing I knew, the guy that comes out of those office doors is the same guy that had tested me before but from a different suburb. Oh yea, I forgot to mention that I had passed on my fourth try. He didn't exactly come straight out and make it a known fact that we've met before so I just followed along and pretended that it was also the first time we've met.
"Okay, now, park next to that big tree for me, please," he instructed.
So I did that. We had stopped along the road for a break and as he was explaining to me some of the little things I had forgotten to do, I had spotted a black cat. This was probably the highlight of my day. A black like, for example, Salem from 'Sabrina the teenage witch' has, all my life, been associated with witches and bringing "bad luck". So there I was, in mid-test, thinking that I'm to fail again but after I just blurted out 'omg it's a black cat', the examiner tells me 'you know, black cats actually bring good luck'.
I was so happy afterwards that I even jumped around outside of the car. :D
I had finally gotten out of the slump that I was in towards the end of the school term. I mean, my grades have been slipping (from a straight B student to a C) and I haven't exactly done my best in studying for the exams neither. I was, in fact, leaving the studying til very late at night (around 11pm and sleeping at 2-3am, then waking up at 6.30am for school). I think it was also around this time that I failed another driving test because I was so tired and didn't pay enough attention. I mean, when the examiner said to turn right, I was turning left.
The word 'disappointment' followed me around like a grey cloud and rained on me at every chance there was.
So today was a turning point in my life or like a little stepping stone. :)
My mum was the first person I told about my passing the test. She was so overjoyed that one hug wasn't enough and she hugged me twice. I have to say twice and put more emphasis on it because my family is not that touchy feely with one another. So group hugs is obviously very rare in my family. Maybe that's why I cherish the hugs I get at school with my friends every time we see each other and say good bye.
My grandmother had pestered my mum that she should've brought me to do some praying (to Buddha?) before the test or something. haha
I wonder why is it that I have to go through such an experience to notice those who really care about me and love me too. No, it's more like I now care about them because of this? I appreciate them for thinking of me and I should really be doing the same thing for them too..
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